Trouble with the Play ButtonDoes the tape need to be erased over?
Is the timing correct?
Should I wait till the movie memories are over?
You dont know my past, and I barely know yours.
We meet, and talk, and laugh,
And share silly stories.
I dont know if Im ready for this kind of interaction.
I wasnt ready last time,
How do I know if Im ready now?
I miss you from time to time
And hold back my urge to just reach out and hug you
But when I see you,
And try to play it cool and relaxed.
(It doesnt always work out too well.)
Some days you graze my palm
And smile at me, eyes glistening
Sunshine Dandelion DayYou are my sunshine dandelion day
after a torrent of stormy miserable drowning days.
I used to find comfort in the rain
and the dark clouds that filled my mind.
But now my head is clear
And I see you standing there,
your hand outstretched and waiting.
And now, I find Im not so afraid to take it,
You lead me away from my misery
And put a smile on my face.
I never used to like to smile,
Afraid of a negative reaction,
But with the help of braces
And a little confidence
I walk above the moon
And the sun, I control.
Thank you for that,
The OrchidYou are a beautiful orchid,
among a field of dandelions.
The others are weeds
but you, are special.
You grow where others cant,
and thrive in poor conditions.
However can I love you,
however can I not.
You beautiful thing,
why must you destroy the world?
Easily hated upon,
You are a pretty orchid
hidden among the brush
Obscured from view
I struggle to find you
Where have you gone poor boy?
You can not be found.
This play of hide-and-seek
shall not continue anymore.
I have lost you delicate thing.
I have, stopped looking.
One Week and a DayWednesday,
my mind is filled with regret.
two more days until the weekend destroys me.
Im excited to see you.
its almost happy today.
and I hate to say it.
Im sad to see you go.
my thoughts are taking over.
and the slashes on my body run deep.
Im almost cheerful.
my brain is ripped to shreds.
I smiled at you today.
youre talking to someone else.
Im waiting for our moment
you touched my hand and smiled at me.
Im antsy to see you.
I missed your touch.
Childhood SummersUnder watchful eyes of
and the will to be
we reach for the dark sky
hoping to grasp
YouYou are the sun, and the moon, and the world
in one thin package.
Afraid to hold you, for you might break.
Afraid to let you slip away, for you might never come back.
Your happy Christmas eyes
Bright bloodshot against emerald green
The prettiest green Ive ever seen.
Why must you do it so clearly?
For the eyes tell all you know.
Stop covering them up
with your smoky addiction.
Black hair against translucent skin
What would we see if we held you up to the light?
That you havent eaten for three days?
youre proud and yet so sad.
So delicate and numb
I wait for your gaze
To briefly meet mine,
To know we are ok.
I frown at you as you walk past
but you do not see.
Where we just friends that just fell apart?
Your grassy-green eyes,
How they look upon the world with such distaste
You shake up the world
and leave me with nothing
Can we say its over?
You must not miss me.
But I think that thats alright now.